Jesus Didn't Exist
It's not really up to me to prove that Jesus didn't exist, you're the one who says he existed, so you're the one you has to prove that what you believe is true. In the absence of evidence that he existed, you can only assume that he didn't exist. It's far more likely that he didn't exist than it is that he did. I doubt I would ever be able to convince you that he didn't exist because there are too many other people who have a vested interest in trying to fool you into thinking that he did. Obviously if you choose to listen to them, you will be swayed by their false opinions. You have the freedom to believe what you like, so it's unfortunate that you choose to believe in something which is untrue. Remember, I used to be a Christian too! If I'd had all the information before I chose to be baptised, I would have had second thoughts about it. All I'm doing is telling you there's an alternative view, and you have the freedom to investigate it. All you have to do is do a Google search using the words, "Did Jesus Exist?" and you will find a wealth of information regarding the alleged existence of Jesus. The problem is, you WANT to believe Jesus existed, because that's all anyone has ever told you. I'm telling you now, he didn't exist. I'm giving you the opportunity to open your eyes to the fact that Christianity may not be all that it appears to be. You don't have to defend it. All you have to do is open your mind and consider the possibility that things may be other than what they seem. I hope you have the courage to do that! Good luck.