hehe, i like your opening post in this threat Zeke
i think it's the common trade mark of every neo-wiccan, pagan, etc... that being -in need of attention- just like people who deal with the paranormal their only goal is to feel 'more special' then the rest...
and in order to feel more special, i seek useless rituals obsolete knowledge and study and try to imitate them... and if people ask, you can simply say they don't understand you or your thinking... making you more inteligent then the rest... and why not maybe in the process you'd acctually start to believe your own lies, wich then would make you lesser intelligent but people don't understand you anyway because you are smarter... circular reasoning
what people won't do for attention