Gerani, if I may be allowed let me point out some beliefs I have that I also believe you could admit as being true or at least feasible. You have heard the story of creation from the Bible of that I am sure. Moreover, you say you believe in one God. Is the god you believe in the creator God? For my points sake we will assume this is the same God. My Bible tells me and I believe it to be true that GOD IS LOVE! Now my creator God decided He wanted a planet of forever friends, "to spend the cool of the day with" as He did with Adam and Eve before they rejected Him. He made everything, saw that it was very good and then He made man and gave it all to him as a gift. When the deceiver came and tricked Eve into believing his twisted truths, the outcome was a broken relationship separation from the life giver.
I will try to explain it this way, when you go into a dark room and turn on the light where does the dark go? It doesn't go anywhere. It ceases to exist.
When God who is righteous made all things and said that it was very good, He was speaking about a righteous creation. However, when mankind chose to reject God's love and care, and chose to walk in their own understanding, their own provisions, their own wisdom. They cast off their righteousness like an over garment, surrendering control of this earth to the leader of the powers of darkness.
Bare with me yet a little longer, I am going somewhere with this.
(Have you heard the story of Christ in the wilderness, when satan was tempting him? Satan said I will give you these things if you fall down and worship me. Christ did not say they are not yours to give, or rebuke his claim to ownership in any shape or form.)
When satan took over ownership of this planet he did so with lies, and being the one time head angel, he has been around for quite some time. It only makes since that if satan were around before the creation of this planet he knows better then anyone what the future holds for him, would you agree? In addition, if his kingdom is a kingdom of darkness, which hates the light of truth, then he will do all that is ALLOWED HIM to stop that light from reaching hungry souls. He has built a kingdom of deception. He knows his time is short, the bible says "the lake of fire that is prepared for him and his angels!" The only glory he receives is the satisfaction of knowing that his lies are causing God the father much pain. "For God is not willing that any should perish"
The sin of this world has, is, and will continue to drag mankind deeper and deeper into hopelessness. Rape, murder, drunkenness, drug abuse, etc. etc. are no worse sins in God's righteous thinking, then being angry with someone.
What mankind accepts as O.K. is filth in the loving eyes of God. I remember as a child in school drawing a picture of an extremely fat person. The art teacher saw it, confiscated it and called my mother to school. I was dumbfounded, and then I was told how shameful I was for drawing a picture of a pregnant woman. And look at what my 8 year old is learning in class today, not just where children come from but how they get there. IN DETAIL! The more abundant something is, still does not make it right. The childish response of "but everyone is doing it!" Friends we have jumped aboard a speeding roller coaster on its last down hill journey. God is Love, He will remain love, however true love must give the receiver the choice, accept or reject. God is the creator of life, He would not create life so that a person could destroy it. The devil is a destroyer, he hates God and mankind, he is a jealous and vengeful fallen angel who is making life miserable for the whole of creation and causing unimaginable pain to our Father in Heaven.
The Bible speaks of God knowing every sparrow that falls from the sky, and how much more valuable are we to Him. If anger is the same as murder in God's thinking, and if calling someone a fool is endangering a person to hells fire, then I believe that the Father God who gives life would class murder as murder regardless of our mind easing excuses. We must understand that what God plans, will come to pass, He planned a planet of eternal friends and He will have a planet of eternal friends. No matter how hard the deceiver works, his end will come, no matter how acceptable or sugar coated sin may become to the worldly eye it is still sin. And God has promised that when He destroys sin it will never again be allowed to raise its ugly head.
The whole in a bucket is; God is right and no matter how we word it, we do not know better then He knows.
If the death of a child is necessary to Him, then He will handle it. If He wants a child of His raised from the dead, He will handle it. Moreover, if we cannot handle it, pray for courage and strength, He will handle that too.
Forgive my many words, but God is God and He is in control. AMEN