Hello again Carol.
Yes, so far it is making sense somewhat but of course I have other questions that are nagging at me. Figures, right? heh
At least I won't be taking passages out of context this time.
Ok here goes.
If God gives free will so you can decide whether to choose him or not and if you don't you burn in hell then what about babies?
Since babies are not self-aware until a certain age and therefore have no free will, and lack the intelligence to make a conscious decision to choose between good and evil why then does God allow them to die?
Why are babies born with diseases and disfigurements and live in pain if God can prevent it? Why do they die in fires, floods, car accidents, etc. since they can't possibly have sin in them or have caused sin?
What about the mentally handicapped who are incapable of understanding concepts such as free will or incapable of choosing God, what happens to them when they die? Why does God allow them to be mentally handicapped at birth? Why does he allow accidents to happen to those who chose him and they become mentally and/or physically disabled?
Why doesn't God stop abortions of innocent unborn babies that haven't had the opportunity yet to choose him?
Why does God need worshippers?
Why does God have people eat of his flesh and drink of his blood? I simply don't understand why he would want people to be cannibals.
Ok that's enough for now heh.
I realize I'm asking alot of questions. I want to understand God better but I can't seem to until I get these nagging questions finally answered and if I do decide to choose him it seems only fair as a moral person myself that I do a background check so-to-speak since if he only accepts those truly worthy of him then he should also be truly worthy of me.
On the one hand he certainly seems to be but I can't help having these nagging doubts with all these questions yet unanswered. Yes I know this may sound vain but I'm just not someone who can take things at face value. I need to be sure within myself that I'm making the right decision and I cannot do that without the answers.
You see, I have no belief in anything(or non-belief for that matter). I'm simply trying to decide whether God is the answer to my existance, or if science is right and I come from primordial gloop, or maybe we were put here long ago by aliens as some kind of experiment, or is it something else?
I simply don't know. I grew up in a family that didn't follow anything. They just worked and lived with no opinions about anything at all. I was always a loner and never a follower so I didn't gravitate to any one thing either. But at this point I've decided it's time to make a choice.
Anyway sorry for rambling and talk to you later.