To Peace2Godspeople
Let me tell you somehting my fried I seen the road, I walked it and I have been on it for most of my life, its a broad road that leads away from spiritual truth of who God is was and always will be.
Clear your mind, let God lead you instead of being influenced by other people. You only get one chance this is it, there are no second chances; if you think for one minute that Christians are less of sinners then Muslims or vice versa you are wrong. No one in this world is righteous, no not even one, we deserve to be going to Hell but God so loved us that he paid our debts and now begs us to come to him.
You need to mediate my friend, if i were you I would spend the next to to 3 years of your life doing research on biblical history, scripture etc. I know that if you dedicate yourself God won't forsake you, I am nobody special a sinner like you who God loves, I did not deserve his grace I did not earn it, yet he gave it to me freely.
If you are who you say you are you were never a Christian to begin with, you're a secular humanist who knows completely nothing about our faith and our God.