i'm guessing we're way off topic now. but anyhoo....
confuscius say; wisdom is knowing the extent of our ignorance.
god requires understanding. the act of submission to a greater source is our defence against ego which is the only part of creation which hasn't grasped the bigger picture. it is not an attempt to keep us in the dark. quite the opposite. there are experiences and enlightenments which are greatly impeded by trying to reconcile them with the erroneous concept of ego. if your having difficulties getting your mind on board - try meditation. its almost certain jesus did. it might help you get some perspective on logic.
everything you know is wrong.
understanding now that's an entirely different kettle of fish