Homosexual Discussion ForumMy son killed himself!Stay in close touch with your other son. He is probably shaking inside and full of grief, too. He needs you. And he needs you to be strong for him. I was a single mother for almost ten years after my husband of twenty years left me with six children, five of whom are adopted special case kids. I know what kind of a hell that is, believe me! I cried for a year, and then we picked up the pieces, came together as a team, and made it through. But you know something? Except for our youngest, who is profoundly retarded due to encephalitis when he was three (after we got him), each of the others has thought about suicide during their teen years for one reason or another! It's such a dramatic way to get out of the confusion! I remember thinking about it once, too -- I think I even threatened it even though I hadn't the slightest how I would carry out my threat. It did get the minister of my boyfriend's church over to talk to me, which is what I really needed and wanted! Your son followed through. It's scary. It's awful. It's horrific. Choose your horrible adjective. But it is not your fault. Could you have ever done something to prevent it? Maybe so. We don't know. But suppose you had and your son had been trapped in that lifestyle for years more? Is that what you would have wanted for him? God allowed that suicide. It ws not His best plan or His perfect plan, but He nevertheless allowed it. In the long run, God knows why. In the short run, we can have faith. It's OK to keep challenging us for now. You may need that and we are here. You don't have a husband on whose chest you can sob, and being alone during this time is an awful thing for you. So hang on to Jesus and scream at us. It's OK. This time WILL pass. Honest it will. |
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