There was a time I felt like that too. But then I met this girl, and she was not like any other girl because she was the only one who could directly touch my heart through her smile. No one else had ever done that before. But when I got to know her and talk with her, she introduced me to God, by talking and sharing with me about God and it made me wonder. What is it that makes this girl so excited about God?
When I was into Psionics and other things, I thought the Bible was boring and religion was nonsense. I asked her family questions. I asked her questions, I went to a youth church with her and to a normal church with her and asked questions there too. Whilst I was there, I saw people being touched by something I knew I didn't have.
After having seen it a few times, I realised it was what I had been searching through Psionics and which touched me more powerfully than Psionics had ever or could ever do.
So I started asking more questions and starting thinking about God when I was alone. Out of curiosity I seriously took up the Bible and began reading the New Testament. When I had finished two of the Gospels, I started noticing through my understanding of Psionics that things in my life wern't normal. I started to have so much increased luck, things worked out perfectly with nothing bad happening and went smoothily.
So I started to get a bit freaked out and wondered "how this could be". I talked with Christians and non Christians and always the subject came back to God.
When this all came clear in my mind after a couple of months, I came to the conclusion that God is real, and thought "what do I do now"? Because I knew God was real .. nothing else could explain all that was happening, I decided to turn Christian.
I asked some people how to give my heart to Jesus and they explained it and I then I gave my heart to Jesus. Then my life became a roller coaster life and opened up my life in a way I had never had with Psionics. Real joy and real feelings , real fulfilment in my heart. It was like the world had become real and I even had more power to manipulate the world just by asking. If you ask God for something He will hear and answer it, if it's in your best interests.
The only advice I can give you Naruto, is to read the Gospels in the New Testament and see what it means to you. Go in search of God. Because of psionics, you should know how to open up your heart and try to open up your heart for God and any other impressions you get. Try to find out what is truth for you.
If God is real, He WILL speak to you. If he is not you will have that knowledge confirmed and you won't need to browse these forums anymore.
I give you my kindest regardest and I wish you God's love and hope you find it.
Greetings
Michael.