Dale, your intellectual assent regarding Christ does not make you a Christian. A Christian is a FOLLOWER of Christ, and someone born again in the Spirit.
When you are born again, you have a new nature, for the old sin nature is dead. Read the book of Romans in the Bible, especially chapters 4-8, and you will find Paul explains it beautifully.
When you have repented and gone in total helplessness to Christ and asked Him to take over your life, you will find yourself a different person. A true Christian is indwelt by the Holy Spirit, and it is rather hard to desire such things as you desire when you are inhabited and led by the Holy Spirit.
Again, intellectual assent is not enough.