Magnolia Angel, thank you for posting. No one is conceived apart from God's knowledge and will. There is no baby born that He says "Whoops! Where did that one come from?"
You are precious to Him. The question is, is He precious to you? Sure, He has a plan for your life. That is not in question.
The question is, will you give Him your life? He gave His for you in Christ Jesus. All your unworthiness is gone in Christ and if you are His, then when the Father sees you, He sees His child.
Christianity is nothing but compoleted Judaism. The Hebrews are the vessel God created and used to show His character to the world and through whom He gave us His Son. Many Jews, perhaps most, do not realize Jesus is the Messiah they spent millennia waiting for, but He is. Someday they will all understand.
In the meantime, it is up to you what you do with Jesus. Accept Him or reject Him. Everything you are and will be depends on that, not on the circumstances of your physical birth.
God bless you.
Who do I identify most with? Leah. I was the oldest and least beautiful of my sisters, but I can see now I am the one God has blessed the most. I understand Leah's hurt and anger, and I also understand her joys with her children and other parts of her life. I was married for twenty years to a man who did not like or love me. He left us in 1991. Nine nears later I was married to the most wonderful man in the world and I couldn't be happier. I don't think Leah had that, but I do hope that after Rachel died, Joseph loved Leah more and appreciated her more. It's a wonderful thing to be loved and appreciated.