Narky,
IF you do that you will also have to accept and shoulder the full conseqences of your actions. Hopefully that IS teaching you to suck eggs.
I have never found humans to be the best option as jury judge and executioner when their personnal feelings and responses are involved and *this comes from experiance* think at least twice before you take ANY of those feelings with you into any occult explorations or workings. You will be sounding like a little beacon to some very malevolent entities that like to 'play'.
I learnt the 'harder' way. I do not recommend it.