Thank you for sharing that,
There are different kind of Christians, just as there are different kind of churches.
Some christians, couldn care less about God, they only go to church to exert power(church leaders) over the church visitors. Some church visitors just go to church for the social contacts, or becouse it's the social right thing to do.
Unfortunately, many Christians are deaf and blind for the Lord, and are easily deluded by Satan(My POV here)
There are churches that don't continuesly accuse, they encourage you to grow in God, to grow in love, to enjoy life with God, to be happy and joyfull.
I think you just happened to fall in the wrong type of church... Which happens a lot these days *sigh*
Sometimes churches within a denomination can differ totally in the amount of faith that is expressed and experienced.
I find it a sad thing really, that some people just can't be bothered, to find God and to worship him in spirit and in truth.
Michael