this is a christian song I wrote it's a true story this is how I met Jesus i hope u like it
(Verse 1)
It was 2004 mid august a rainy summer night
the rain was pouring down sparkling on the street lights
I was walking with my cousin Steven through the lightening and thunder
all we could see were cars driving by and people running for cover
trying to hide from the wetness of the rain
I was telling my cousin about the depression and the pain
that I was feeling at that time
It was getting late it was about half past nine
He took me to his friend Freddy's house
he said Freddy might be able to help me out
so there I am on the front steps of his porch
I told him wat was on my mind and he opened the car door of his porche
he told me "get in we'll go for a ride" so we left Freddy's house
we pulled up to this little church in Holyoke and he opened the door to let me out
I asked him y we were there
he said every saturday his pastor has prayer
so we went inside and I met his pastor
we prayed for a while and right after
the pastor prayed wit me one on one
I told him I felt like my life has come undone
like it's falling apart piece by peice
and if I don't get help I'll soon be decease
(Course)
Cause' these tears I cry
come from years of lies
and I can't face the fears inside
and I'm contemplating suicide
and every1 can see it in these tears I cry
Cause' these tears I cry
come from years of lies
(Verse 2)
he said "suicide's an honest risk"
thats when he noticed the cuts on my wrist
he asked me why I did it
he said "why would you take your life and risk it"
"why would you cut your wrist kid"
I told him "listen"
"I don't have a soul it's missing"
"all I got inside are torn emotions"
"I'm worn and hopeless"
then he asked if I wanted God to save me
I told him look "I think God made a mistake when he made me"
"cause' after all I've been through I'm convinced that God hates me"
he said "God don't make mistakes people do"
I said "yea well either way evil's crule"
then he said "God give's people choices and those people chose to hurt you"
"but God will never go desert you"
then he asked again "do you want God to save you''
he said "just ask him to forgive you for your sin's" so I did and he said "God forgave you"
and all of a sudden tears fell from my eye's and
he said "why are you crying"
so I told him
(Course)
these tears I cry
come from years of lies
but I can finally face the fears inside
I'm no longer contemplating suicide
I'm getting the pain out in these tears I cry
cause' these tears I cry
come from years of lies
(Verse 3)
it's been almost a year and 5 months since that night
I'm still at that little church in Holyoke and life has since been right
but I got a message from God telling me I gotta say goodbye
cause' I joined the service and their shipping me off in July
I don't wanna leave them cause' I know once I do it'll emotionaly damage me
cause' the people in that church are closer to me then my family
they've giving me a love no1 has ever shown me
and I know without them my life will be lonely
but it's wat God wants and I gotta do wat he say's
after all he know's best
I know he'll guide me through the struggles
and he'll carry me through the troubles
and when I die
and my life flashes before my eyes
and I look back in the sand of heavens beach
and for every struggle in my life I only see
one set of footprints in the sand
I won't ask him y cause' I'll know the footprints belong to the son of man
and it was during the struggles that he carried me in his hands
so I'll look back on that beach
and be proud to see one set of feet
knowing that those footprints didn't come from me
they came from Jesus
he was the only one who carried me when my life was being torn to peices
(Coruse)
and these tears I cry
may come from years of lies
but I can finally face the fears inside
I'm no longer contemplating suicide
so let these be the last tears I cry
cause' these tears I cry
come from years of lies
here read this poem it'll help u understand what I'm talking about in the 3rd verse:
Footprints In The Sand
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."
Written by Mary Stevenson