Only this little post to contribute to this forum.
The thing occultism teaches, is to open up to powers from the outside, so you can use that power.
If you have psionics, it teaches you to open yourself up for a major energy flow from the outside and to take that in.
By doing that you're opening yourself for powers of the outside, it might seem at the moment that they give you great strength, great power, you feel like you can change the world, but it also leaves you drained.
But since you know this energy flow that gave you energy, you just simply tap into that to give you the energy you need, but every time you do that, you see that you need more and more and eventually you can't live without it anymore.
You get "hooked" to this power from the outside.
Instead of allowing your body to balance itself you keep draining energy from this seemingly endless supply.
But you have to sacrifice time, thoughts, your being to this.
It might not seem like this, but it is so.
Becouse to take in energy you have to focus on yourself, clear all thoughts except the need for energy and how you are going to get it in.
And well, it can't be done just with a snap of the finger, so there goes your time.
Btw, I'm speaking from experience here.
There was a time before I met the Lord that I was doing very heavyly psionics and magick and chi manipulation, and it was all very real and it all worked.
It was just this energy leakage, this spill I never got the source off.
If I wouldn't do psionics, Open up myself for this flow, I would feel tired, depressed, sad. If I would open myself, I would feel alive, happy, joyfull.
But the moments I wasn't doing psionics, etc... I was very down, unhappy, thinking about psionics and stuff.
It even got so bad at a time that anytime a little thing went wrong I wanted to kill myself and well, I got very close to killing myself some times.
I do not wish this fate to anyone else, so here's my warning
If you recognize any of this, stop doing what you were doing, and seek the final answer, the solution.
Michael