I am unintentionally adding baggage from hinduism since I have no knowledge of hinduism what so ever. Sadly I will say my knowledge of the bible is very limited. I have read bits and no doubt have misunderstood a lot of the bits I have got around to reading. I love Job because I think I have grasped that one. It is straight foward enough. God allowed the Devil to test Job. The Devil wanted to test Job to see if Job would still be faithful to God after everything had happened. Job was still faithful to God even when he lost his house, family and friends and all his money and health. I wish I knew that I could be just as faithful as Job. I can live in Hope? It is an inspiring book for me and a straight foward book.
How am I perverting the truth? I mean, I am meaning it with the best of intentions. I am still working things out. Or rather have only just started to work things out properly. I do not mind being challenged because it helps me to think. I like to think that I think but I know my thoughts do not go very deeply at all. So with what I have said, and the knowledge that I try to look for good in everything and try to see things simplistic, then guide me into reasoning of how I am perverting the truth?
I certainly do not worship idols. I only have two crosses in my home and do not use them in worship. I suppose they are symbols yes. One an Psalm cross given out on Psalm sunday and it wasn't asked back last Ash Wednesday, and the other a hand size wooden cross sat on my dressing table to prompt me.
I am working at developing full faith. What is right for me is what is God's will. But working out when the devil is talking and when God is talking is often the biggest challenge. My path of life is an easy one in many ways because I have worked out all is what is wanted of me is to Share God's Love with people. How to do that and 100% believing that is actually happening - that is where faith comes in...and the devil to side track me into forgetting and sharing God's love on my terms, how I am comfortable at doing so.
I like you because you are challenging me. I do know my relationship with God has strengthend somewhat over the last couple of years. I am ready for taking things a little bit more seriously as have been timid over the last years too. I was seriously ill last year with Septicemia. That was last year. Now I want to Live and really think. I don't mind how you challenge me because I know I want to learn. So am upto being stretched. Picking up my bible will stretch me because am ashamed to say I have been relunctunt to in the past. Several things have changed for me since last year and now I can begin to change them. I be no good as a Nun because I be begging to come back out again. I am classing myself as a novice external nun in my really private thoughts so willing for challenge. I feel that I can share God's love more effectively as an ordinary citizen rather than as someone dressed in robes. Live if for living and I intend on stretching it as much as I can now on in many ways and I might be a little niave now, but it wont last I hope. So challenge my posts quite openly!