Origen, what I find interesting about your posts are you seem dead set against dogma, yet quote a man (Origen) who is used to support Catholic dogma that is in direct opposition to what God revealed in His word.
Philippians 2:7-11
7 ..but emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men. 8 And being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. 9 Therefore also God highly exalted Him, and bestowed on Him the name which is above every name, 10 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those who are in heaven, and on earth, and under the earth, 11 and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. NAS
During His earthly ministry Jesus "emptied Himself" of His divine perogatives and powers, which does not mean He ceased to be part of the Trinity. You are interpreting my posts not reading my posts.
Also since you correctly view God as your judge then it seems to me that you should take God at His word.
Revelation 21:7-8
7 "He who overcomes shall inherit these things, and I will be his God and he will be My son. 8 "But for the cowardly and unbelieving and abominable and murderers and immoral persons and sorcerers and idolaters and all liars, their part will be in the lake that burns with fire and brimstone, which is the second death." NAS
You can rationalize your gay desires as pleasing to God, however God will judge those who do not overcome those desires.