Oh, Also, I'm manic depressive, too. I'm on Lamictal and Wellbutrin(antidepressant). When I can't sleep I usually take Tylenol. Oh, but what will really knock you out is Seroquel. I think that is how you spell it. I got precribed a small does of that- it is for bipolar- and it puts me to sleep. Or I usually listen to the radio when I'm sleeping. Right now I listen to rock. Other times rap. Other times pop. Sometimes even country. When I get bad anxiety I listen to the Christian station or play a Majesty Music (Christian) CD.
But also, I'm a girl. And it is alot more acceptable for guys to mastrubate than girls. I mean- tell me honestly- would you be more attracted to a female who mastrubates or one who doesn't? Wouldn't you rather she save herself for you? I mean - would you want her to be "dry" when you were ready to have intercourse? I was just with this one guy before who couldn't ever get hard in front of a girl and he always talked about mastrubating saying he did it every night and he complained about being a virgin but he thought that mastrubating would make him hard. And then - sorry about this vulgarity- but so when he finally did get inside he said he couldn't feel anything and he gave up really quick- and I was trying to explain to him that it isn't like mastrubating- I mean that it is alot more complicated and it is alot harder work but the rewards are really great but it takes time before actually seeing results. But all of the mastrubating seemed to have spoiled him. I don't know. I'm still friends with him and we do stuff together but I'm worried about him sexually. I think he is really confused and that the mastrubating is adding to his confusion. I apologise for all of this vulgarity but this is just what is up with me.