I'm not saying that the culture is bad- It has alot of good in it- but there are alot of people "falling by the wayside" and being caught up in stuff before they even know what they are doing. If someone enjoys being gay and is happy- that's great. But being gay causes alot of emotional and mental problems in some people- so noone should feel like they have to be gay. Sometimes my mind starts making me believe that I am Babylon the Great Mother of Harlots in Revelation- if people were telling me all the time that I am indeed that "person" - I would have alot more problems to deal with.
Jeremiah 17:9 says- "the heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it"
My heart tries to deceive me all the time about who I am. The truth is I can be exactly who I want to be. Most of the time I don't even believe that there is a Babylon the Great- that is just an allegory but not even a person. All I know is that I don't want to be her and so I don't have to be- but of course it is always in the back of my mind. It is very hard to escape what you think you are- but spirituality and Christianity is about dying to your flesh and your self and trying to emulate Christ as much as possible. if a gay person isn't convicted about their homosexuality as wrong and they are able to believe in it as a way to serve God- God can definitely use gay people. Are there gay churches anywhere? I just can't understand the concept of wanting to be gay- I'll admit- sometimes i glory in the idea that I may indeed be Babylon the Great- because that would make me someone "important" but that idea i have is sick and twisted and it sounds ridiculous- Babylon the great is supposedly the worst woman to ever live- and i definitely don't want to be her- God doesn't rejoice in her- why should I? Why would i want to be someone who God takes no pleasure in? because when I do believe i am her then I believe that if i am the worst person ever then that means everyone will be saved- because I know I am saved- and if I'm terrible somehow that will make everyone able to obtain salvation just like me. But it is my worst fear that I am her- but sometimes I just sink into that fear to make it less scary- i just accept it as true and a part of me- but it is exactly what I don't want. It seems like what i don't want to be so badly I always become. I wish I had never read revelation or that someone would explain this away for me- but who takes you seriously if you say something like that- When people do try to tell me what they think Babylon the Great is I don't have the ability to believe them because what they say seems to just explain her away as nothing. i really wish I had never read Revelation or maybe i should just read it and read it until I find a way out.