God does not hate you, please do not believe that!
Christ came into this world for sinners, not for the righteous.There is nothing you could have done that God will not forgive you of my dear friend. I have committed nearly every sin in the book and was on my way to HELL many times over. It was then I realized that A Loving God who sent His only Son into this world to Die for our unrighteousness and for our sins! Only the Enemy wants you to feel the way you do, don't let the enemy take away what should, would, can and will be a Joy, Hope and Assurance that you need. Christ Loves you my friend, and His arms are stretched forth towards you, for yuo to take hold of it and HE WILL NOT LET GO!!
God Bless!