alright, this is my problem. As a non-christian in the past i had a very stong relationship. Me and this girl was
in love without a doubt. We were highschool sweethearts. I was her first boyfriend and she was my first girlfriend
and we also lost our virginity together. We were in the world and didnt know any better. Me and her planned to get
married after college and about our first year in college we began going to church and became christians. it really was
a great thing for both of us. but some where in the mix she lost feelings for me somehow and i still had them. so i gave
her time to get her headstraight and hopefully come around and remember whaT we had. It didnt happen, so basically
i was heartbroken for a little while. I asked if she still had feelings for me and she said no. So i said alright and
planned to move on in life. She was the love of my life and then boom, gone. But i got up off my feet. it took a while but
i was good. i vowed never to give a girl my heart again. and ive been single ever since... but i had a desire to have a kid
because i love kids. so i adopted a kid. and its been wonderful eversince. i dont have a mommy around but me the boy
do good together. he's 3 now. so years go by then the unthinkable happens, the girl of my dreams comes back to me telling
me what a mistake she made and she wants to be with me and wants to marry me.. she thought i had a kid and i had to
explain to her what i did. but i told her i am happier now then ever with the kid. i said you left me when i needed you most
and im not taking you back, or any other women. she broke my heart once, and i dont want it to happen again. i told her ill
be her friend and all but she doesnt want that.
I dont even think i love her in that way anymore... what would you say i do in this situation. ??? I dont lust for women or
anything... its just me, my son, and god hand and hand and im happy. im not doing this to get even with her. ill never go to
thAT level. so someone right back.