Well kesuramoni,
this may not be sensitive to your original question, but it is what I believe.
Believing that there is no GOD because he doesn't save you, you are forced to save yourself, is really just proving the fact the lucifer has won your faith.
One who would expect his/her creator (GOD) to automatically save them, is really just lazy. I belive most would refer to that as the sin of Sloth?
GOD gave us free will to make our own choices. And through our own choices we can only find GOD and his kingdon by way of JESUS CHRIST.
If you would honestly expect GOD to save you, without any effort on your behalf, then what is the point of having a relationship with GOD. It would only be one-sided. How many one-sided human relationships are you involved in?
Remember; many times in the Bible, lucifer tried to get JESUS to ask GOD to save him from pain and suffering, so JESUS would not have to make any sacrifices. Because GOD didn't automatically save JESUS from pain and suffering, does that mean that he is not in GOD's Kingdom, sitting at His right hand? That GOD the Father of JESUS didn't exist?