Fellow Christian Brothers and Sisters,
I am a married man, of 17 years, who has dealt with same-sex attraction since adolescence. I had been able to abstain from genital contact with other men, up until recently.
My son recently invited a friend of his to a sleep over. I was instantly attracted, despite Sam's age being only fourteen. As I go to know Sam, I began to see that he had certain homosexual tendencies. One day I cornered him in the bathroom and told him that I'd pay him if he'd let me orally gratify him...he laughed obliged...and after finishing in my mouth, he said "we should do this again."
We have been meeting at motels ever since and our sexual activities have escalated into sodomy, scatophilia, cross dressing, light sado-masochism and etc. I know the grave nature of my sin, but I am too weak to resist the pleasure that this sin provides me with.
I feel tremendous guilt. I have strayed from Christ, I have neglected his Word. I have letdown my wife, our marital union and our son. Most of all I have let down Sam, not only by leading him down the devils path, but by using the difference in our age to exploit him, in the process causing him irreprocable damage in development. I see him growing up confused and troubled.
I know of Christs forgiveness
still I cannot stop.
i read this on the ex gay forum thing
this is not homosexuality, i believe in the union of two souls. but this? this is incest! this is not because of homosexuatity, its because he bottled up everything until it burst upon his own son! i find it horribly disgusting. if this was happening between him and his daughter, i would find it sickneing too.
self countrol. hinduism teaches that, you learn yoga and control your unwanted desires of anything in excess.
------------------------------------------------------------
According to whom? You?
whad ya mean? islam, christiantiy, and islam are considered western relgions. its a fact.
You really don't know much about homosexuality in history do you? Homosexuality was tolerated in some ancient cultures as long as it was not exclusive and was kept private. What does England have to do with the suppression of homosexuality? Sparta tolerated homoerotic relationships but required all male citizens to marry at age 30. Athens tolerated homoerotic relationships but any Athenian who was anal receptive could loose his citizenship. Only one Roman Emperor lived an openly gay life, which made Roman citizens so angry he had his lover assasinated then retired to Capri. No culture in the history of the world permitted gay unions until now.
um, therewere many roman emperors that were gay. i disagree with sparta/roman/greek cuture because the men married, yet they had harems of both boys and girls. i disagree with it cuz they had orgies! uck.
gay unions only consist of two people. i still cant see how the hurt YOU. if they are content spiritualy with themselves and they have pure love between them, then they can.