some thoughts on creation and evolution. not prescriptive.
you have the ineffable, the whole from which separation occurs creating the concept of duality. the above and the below.
then you get the firmament and the waters. still dual. its the movement over the water which creates space and time force and momentum. think about it for a while. the paradox being without these concepts there need be no conception or 'begining'. time is a concept and if i changed a few of the connections in your brain you'd see it too. not that your brain is actually the ultimate cause of anything.
man's mistake is that he seees things dually- gametes noughts and ones. as lao tze said 'beauty implies ugliness'. the concepts give rise to themselves and only fox the minds of those who believe themselves essentially separate from the whole the divine. ego. there you have the removal from eden. the concepts of guilt and knowledge self importance. this was huge because this twist in thinking has huge divisive ramifications for the cosmic consciousness. all evil stems from this ignorance.
consider where you physically begin and end. the atom you brushed away was that you? your hair falls out is that you? no, you are a concept of your mind. all the work of creation. and it is ignorance these erroneous concepts, these karmic seeds, this arrogant knowledge which can inflict mortal wounds on your soul. yes you have one of those.
we are in the middle of momentous change. this is happening on a spiritual level. which means only those with their consciousness expanded will be affected. it is an evolution but a moral one. you see that is the terrifying thing. the natural law is not a patriarch waiting to cast you down. it is an inevitable process. parts of the consciousness are corrupted by grasping to wrong thought. this prevents the assimilation of new imformation that cannot be reconciled with ego. at a vibrational level, unless the circuitry is in place karma will rise to the surface. this is what is meant by impurity. its like trying to run a mini on rocket fuel. it literally blows the mind causing a myriad of disorders.
when jesus came to save he was on a very real mission to get as many people as he could to realise they had a finite amount of time(thats what happens if you believe in time...you can run out of it) to wake up to themselves or rather their no self. you have to live a certain way to produce these results in your spirit. thems the breaks. same deal in buddhism and other religions.
you're waiting for proof. looks like you went with the left hand door. remember there are two sides to your brain. logic is a tool. logic is only as strong as the information you feed into the chain at the beginning. not the be all and end all. how sure are you of a single inalienable fact? imagination is more important than intelligence ...didn't einstein say that?
for those who think going with the gut is silly. let me introduce the vagus nerve which travels down the brain stem through the heart and winds up in the gastro intestinal tract. there is evidence you have neurons in the gut...which goes along way to support the vedic system of medicine.
i don't know whether this will help you. but everything we purport to believe as newtonian physics is not fixed. i know, its happened to me.
and for my sins it terrified me and i have an awful feeling that means i chose the earth and not heaven. the small comfort i draw is the gospel' let he who has breath give praise' and i still have breath. and remind myself that the divine is not hysterical. no cowards in heaven.
this earth as you see it is operating on several levels. it looks the same it sounds the same but it means different things depending on what frame your in. i shudder to use the analogy...but think of a computer game with different levels. different abilties on each. thats why its so easy to be skeptical because there is always another explanation if you want it. thats why you have faith. faith to believe in your soul's interpretation of events even when this would draw scorn from your peers. fear not the man who can take your life fear him that can take your soul. believe me it can and does happen.
love is the most important thing. this is not semtimental. to understand real all encompassing,selfless love is to realise/experience the truth.the truth has been described as that which does not change. to recognise our essential part of this would put a piece of consciousness beyond death.
be empty of all false thought. nature abhors a vacuum and it fills the void of 'you' with pure peaceful abiding love and shows all things as divine..
boundless loving kindness.