The real burning question here in the first place is, what would be sensible about God torturing people with desires he never wants them to fulfill?
I'm with Tommy. I personally can remember as early as the age of TWO having sexual attraction to a man. I even crawled into the bed while he was sleeping so I could explore his body. I remember this quite clearly. I have NEVER had even the slightest sexual attraction to women. Not once.
Even when I had a girlfriend for a year and a half, everytime physical intimacy was intiated, I felt very uncomfortable. After a few half hearted attempts to go further, I had to keep saying stop. Nothing felt more wrong to me in my life.
The natural urge I have, has always been centered on males. It's the only thing that will actually spring forth true physical desire. It's not even just the body of course, it's the ESSENCE of being a man. Mannerisms, ways they carry themselves, testosterone driven traits, etc. That's the whole package, and any straight female would know exactly what I'm talking about.
The bottom line is, I can speak as an absolute authority for myself. In my case, I have none of these "excuses" that others seem to seek out to explain being gay.
I was never abused. I have wonderful parents that have given me the best example I've ever seen of a wonderful, monogamous 35+ year relationship. If anything the desire to have such a great model of a typical man-wife marriage would have inclined me to give it the old college try.
My father was not distant or absent. My mother is not controlling or domineering. I have a slightly younger brother who is totally hetero. No influence there. I had no gay friends growing up, and almost no experiences.
But I was ALWAYS gay and always knew it.
So in my case it's indisputible and it'd be ridiculous to argue with me and tell me I in any way "developed" this from a starting point of being heterosexual. Well, not unless you're an idiot anyway. There would be no sensible argument you could make.
So in my case, I would consider God to be an unconscionably cruel and wicked entity to have me born with something so intrinsic to my self identity. Something that only a male could possibly give me in terms of love and desire and companionship to make me happy.
I should completely repress my sexual desire and be celibate and single? THAT'S the Christian logic? For the purpose of supposedly not acting out the very desires that were created in me by God presupposing he exists?
Yeah...Right. That makes total sense.