Just some questions followed by some passages from the bible to back them up.
1. Given the numerous atrocities in the bible done by your god in the slaughter of countless thousands of men, women, children, and babies how can you possibly justify worshipping such a sick and depraved deity?
The Lord smote all the firstborn in the land of egypt... (Exodus 12:29)
2. Given the above how can you possibly call this deity kind or loving?
Now go and smite Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and spare them not: but slay both man and woman, infant and suckling, oxen and sheep, camel and ass. (I Samuel 15:3)
And I will kill her children with death... (Revelation 2:23)
This passage proclaimed by Jesus to punish the mother for adultery. Some reasoning ability he has to murder innocent children for something the parent did.
There are many more I could put in here about your god's love of killing and hatred for families and his other acts of pettiness, jealousy, and cruelty but I'll check back to see how these are answered.