You are a champion my friend!
Those that know God Truly within are never losers!
God never leaves us or forsakes us. As long that there is a spark of hope within a person who is lost, there is always a way.
The Harvest is almost very near ripe and the Coming of the Lord is close at hand. Lets pray for each other here and for all the Brothers and Sisters in Christ.
Because there is always time to grow for everyone, so that the Lord who has started the Good Work WILL FINISH IT.
It is written: John 3:2 Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is.
That is when we shall be made completely Whole without any desire of the Flesh but of the Spirit.
God Bless you my friend.